This blog is simply used as a tool to express my own thoughts & feelings.
Not everything in this blog is by me, i might use quote from famous people.
Because frankly I'm not that smart(:
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love,
Estelle

Will a star drop down from the sky?
Will a girl turn into a boy?
Will flowers & insects talk?
&
Will you become mine?
If like harry potter; twilight & golden compass,
If i have the power they have,
I can turn people into frogs,
Or maybe the price charming of mine!

HAHAHA, not so wicked to turn people into a frog.
But the second part can be consider(:

By the way, my name is Estelle & I'm Eighteen.
Turning Nineteen on 12 January 2010, arghh seems old.
I love to talk & joke but not to everyone.
My idea partner must be as tall as 180cm,
Thou I'm just 157cm :D
Actually I had found my guy,
He has everything i wanted & I'm crazy abt him.
Stop my crap & enjoy reading(:

This post is name fulfilling because i want to fulfill all my wish before December 31 2009. There's still 4months & 5days left. I understand what is the outcome and i accept it. Happiness have been revolving around me for 4 years and seriously i think its enough. Thanks alot for staying by my side for this 4years how can i possibly be selfish and ask for more. In the past, my wish is to let our relationship be recognized by your family thus been requesting it not knowing that it gives you alot of pressure. Like i say, if there's a will, there's a way. Since i can keep repeating this sentence to you, i should have known clearly that I am still not the right one for you. Thus i hope that i can make good use of this 4 months & 5 days to give you happiness and also fulfilling my wishes. Hahaha :D Leaving you, i have no regret as i know the story is gonna end like this long ago. Feeling upset ? Yes i believe if i dont feel upset then i dont love you at all.

Four years ago you asked me to be with you, when i am feeling lonely and upset and heartbroken from the previous relationship, you came into my life. You accompanied me throughout this four years having both happy and sad memories. The incident which left deep impression for me is that i once use a metal locker to throw it on you. You didnt blame me but you ran after me. For four years, i had been so unreasonable and stubborn but never once did you say you hate me.

Because of you, Because i fall in love with you;

I learnt that there's happiness in this world
I learnt how to smile in sad occasions
I learnt how to treasure & cherish people around me
I learnt how to eat sushi & even fall in love with it

Because of you, Because i fall in love with you;
I know that miracles do happen
I know that rainy days will definitely be over
I know that no matter what happen a guy name Keith will always be here for me
I know that actually not all ppl love themselve most because i love you more than anything.

& most importantly

Because of you, Because i fall in love with you;
I opened my heart to you & allow you to have a place in it.

The only regret is that I am still not the right one for you.


In 4months & 5days time, I'll have to leave & i don't know what can i leave for you.
I don't know what can i do for you, i hope you will always remember a girl name Estelle.
Someone who you always call silly & pig, someone who you proclaim you love deeply.
In my heart, i remember everything you say, the videos i insists on taking are memories that i can reminisces on. 4 years, i gave up my own life in pursue for yours. I walk behind you, following your footsteps. In fact, i live because of you. Always worrying that you will not be able to take care of yourself need to stop that soon.

Now, let me list down a list of things i need to fulfill :D

1. Buy keith a watch as i always hpe he will wear a leather watch
2. Celebrate 4year anniversaries without any quarrels & unhappiness
3. Jurong safra trip with Keith
4. Cook him a nice dish of chinese food
5. Get him a wallet for his birthday
6. Trip to night safari with keith
7. Hope he will bring me Ice-Skate like he promise (Kallang trip)
8. Change his habit of scolding "F***" (kind of hard)
9. Buy him a spec frame
10. Eat ice-cream together while walking home(not expensive, is normal stick ice-cream)
11. Go chalet with him one last time
12. Ask him see doctor, make sure his tummy is okay
13. Change his habit of drinking cold drinks at night (bad for asthma)
14. Boost his confidence in studies
15. Help him in memorising things better
16. Buy him a collar shirt (something unique)
17. Find him a slipper which will not fade in colour & not slippery
18. Eat beef noodles with him at century square the shop he eat with Nicholas
19. Request him to will wear the our ring one day without taking it out
20. Take pictures of him and me wearing the ring
21. Every outing from now on, try to take at least a picture together
22. Hope he will shelter me with umbrella without me asking

That's all i can think off for now, let me continue thinking tomorrow. going to bath to get ready to tuition (:

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