This blog is simply used as a tool to express my own thoughts & feelings.
Not everything in this blog is by me, i might use quote from famous people.
Because frankly I'm not that smart(:
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love,
Estelle

Will a star drop down from the sky?
Will a girl turn into a boy?
Will flowers & insects talk?
&
Will you become mine?
If like harry potter; twilight & golden compass,
If i have the power they have,
I can turn people into frogs,
Or maybe the price charming of mine!

HAHAHA, not so wicked to turn people into a frog.
But the second part can be consider(:

By the way, my name is Estelle & I'm Eighteen.
Turning Nineteen on 12 January 2010, arghh seems old.
I love to talk & joke but not to everyone.
My idea partner must be as tall as 180cm,
Thou I'm just 157cm :D
Actually I had found my guy,
He has everything i wanted & I'm crazy abt him.
Stop my crap & enjoy reading(:

I'm going to either CLOSE this blog or DELETE all the post.
I'm going to have a new beginning without him.
I'm willing and going to let go of the past.

I know deep down you have nvr truly love me. All you did was make use of me.
I kept quiet cause i truly do love you, but the more i keep quiet, the more you take me for granted. Do you know how much you hurt me with wadever u did. Only after i get upset or angry den you will apologize, saying you love me. But if you really love me, you shouldnt hurt me at the very first place isnt it. My heart really hurt alot. I have no wish to continue this.

Just learn how to play L4D yesterday night. HAHAHA(: Im suppose to study for PECON, but seeing my elder sis playing L4D i got kind of hook up too. Well, at first its quite scary. With all the hands, head and other body parts falling off. Its kind of ... phew. BUT got use to it after playing for a few times.

I hate the TANK, BOMBER, SMOKER, WITCH & HUNTER !!!!!!!!!!!
But, i hate the tank and witch MOST. When they attack you, damn scary. The first time i saw this two, i freak out. I was like OMG, RUN RUN.

Alright, going practice my l4d NOW!

Today i came across a quote by ... ( duno who la )
What matter most is that the quote is very meaningful(:
This is how the quote goes:

" Dream like you will live forever and live like you will die today ! "

To me, they most beautiful and wonderful image in the whole wide world is able to be together till old. Like the picture above(: Isnt it wonderful? But the problem is in this world how many couple can be together till old. Imagine you were to get married at the age of 30 and you have a life of 80years old. You will have to stay with you hubby/wife for 50years ! Isnt it hard. Wont feelings fade? HAHAHA.

I hope and hope that one day, i can be like the picture above. Holding hand till old with the love of my life. Alot of people say that if you stop giving to the relationship, the other half will start giving in to the relationship. But, if you love someone so much how will you bear to stop giving in to him. As a girl, if you really love someone, you will keep giving in till the day you give everyth you are able to giv. HAHAHA, Valentine day is coming soon(: In another 28days.

Saying all this suddenly is because of things i have been through recently. I have learn to accept the one i love and not try to change him(: I hope things will go well ! I read a book. Men are from MARS and Woman are from Venus. There are lots of differences between a man and woman. However, we always think that all human regardless of MAN or WOMAN are the same. Is it why couples have conflict? Is that how love is develope. Bring two different people together is a hard thing not to mention having to live and communicate with the person. Thus we do have to treasure what we have now right. Chances may slip pass and nothing gonna happen twice. Feeling tired wanting to give up their relationship should think twice. NEVER make a choice which you will regret. Both parties, regardless of guy or girl. BOTH, should put in their effort to maintain their relationship. If only one party give in, the other will suffer and eventually, the relationship, the fate will eventually COLLAPSE ! Computer is down with some loading problems =X. update tomorrow night after celebrating with keith(: Anyway, celebrate bday with shamus, keith, sisters and marmii yesterday. HAHAHA! was surprise that keith and shamus was there. LOVE MY YUMMY BDAY CAKE WHICH KEITH BOUGHT :DD i got one big piece. HeeHeeHee. Went to marina mandrine for some yummy buffet dinner, manage to post some pictures. Tomorrow going to celebrate my bday with keith(: Haven decide on which Hotel buffet to go too.


DISAPPOINTED

I'm very disappointed in him. Today, i realise that he is still the same, nvr change at all.
He controls my life, from clothes to food to buying things. I dont mind but the worst part is that, i'm always listening to him but he NVR listen to me at all. AT ALL !

Today we went to NTUC to buy some ham cause he wants to eat. After buying, i say i wan to go to the sweets departent. I saw this chocolate which i really wan but he told me "dun buy not nice" and i cant buy. I saw him buying crackers and tell him its not healthy to eat that for supper but guess what he tell me. He say " i need it for supper la " WOOHOO ! He can buy it.

When i told him i want go to the stores which sell alot of notebook he took me there. At first i saw this schedule and thus wanted to buy but walking round the shop i saw something else. Something i wanted him to buy for me instead of the schedule. But he told me "ITS USELESS" AND AGAIN I CANT BUY !

I tried telling him, explaining to him why am i so angry. But all he did was to give excuses and excuses. In his eyes, IM ALWAYS WRONG and HE"S NVR WRONG ! I dont get it. Why cant he be nicer to me just like how i treat him. I dont know how long can i last. I do love him do want to be with him. But i cant and really dislie his attitude towards me. WE DONT COMMUNICATE!

I think if he still not intending to change himself den we wont last.
He just let me think that he doesnt love me AT ALL. BORING BORING BORING !
Guess what, I'm in school right now, this very moment.
Using computer from EN23-5-... not sure(: Waiting for my psychology lesson at 4pm. 30plus mins to go =X ! ARGHHHHHH.
Feel like sleeping as its so boring. I've been waiting since 1pm.
Playing facebook (pet's society), surfing the internet and nothing else. WORRY

My grandmother is staying in the hospital now. Well,
that's because of her tummy. But we are not very sure wad problem is it.
So poor grandma have to stay there for couples of days. Im really worried about her. Ever since my grandpa passed away im very afraid to lose people i love. i treasure them and really do love them. PLS LET HER GET WELL. DONT WANT YOU TO LEAVE ME ! What can words or promises prove.
NOTHING !

Action is the one that can prove somethings.
But sometimes in life, no matter how hard u try
u cant get the one u love to prove u his love for u by actions

Is it cause he doesnt truly love you?
Or is it that u r not the one who can mak him do things for u
LOVE IS WEIRD. ITS STRANGE.

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