This blog is simply used as a tool to express my own thoughts & feelings.
Not everything in this blog is by me, i might use quote from famous people.
Because frankly I'm not that smart(:
You can contact me at estelle_special@hotmail.com
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Click on "ABOUT", "CHAT", "LINK" & so on

love,
Estelle

Will a star drop down from the sky?
Will a girl turn into a boy?
Will flowers & insects talk?
&
Will you become mine?
If like harry potter; twilight & golden compass,
If i have the power they have,
I can turn people into frogs,
Or maybe the price charming of mine!

HAHAHA, not so wicked to turn people into a frog.
But the second part can be consider(:

By the way, my name is Estelle & I'm Eighteen.
Turning Nineteen on 12 January 2010, arghh seems old.
I love to talk & joke but not to everyone.
My idea partner must be as tall as 180cm,
Thou I'm just 157cm :D
Actually I had found my guy,
He has everything i wanted & I'm crazy abt him.
Stop my crap & enjoy reading(:

Recently feeling very stress =X Heart seems to be swaying and swaying.
But i manage to put it to a stop, i know deep down no one can replace my bb.
Towards him, its love, responsibility, thanks and lots and lots.
Of cause loving him is the first factor why no one can replace him(:

Happy now as i finally realise what i want and truly looking for.
Sorry that i have a second thot, but I LOVE YOU!
TO ***** ,

I duno whether you will ever get to read this or did you ever visit my blog but im saying all this from the bottom of my heart. For the past three years, my love for you is true and really want to be with you. However alot of things went wrong for the past three years. Alot of things changed and you also changed. You have started to care more about your friends and money. In ur heart, my position had drop from top to fourth or even lesser. I dun ask for alot, just hope you will be nier to me. Call me occassionally and msg me with your own initiative. However, you always say will change to be nicer to me but never did that. all you know was to tell white lies. I forgave you and believe you over and over again. But all i get was disappointment and tears. i have learn to protect myself to not trust you so much. Sorry for treating you like this but i am really afraid that i will get hurt again. Now all i need is for you to prove me that you love for me is true and really will change for me.

I HOPE FROM THE BOTTOM OF YOUR HEART, YOU WILL REALLY DECIDE TO CHANGE FOR ME AND PROVE TO ME THAT YOU DO LOVE ME(:

KEITH IM WAITING FOR YOU, I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN WAITING FOR YOU AND I WILL NEVER STOP WAITING FOR YOU. I BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT.

PROVE ME PLEASE ! Today went out to buy ccn things cause selling ice-cream on this oming friday ! HAHAHA.
Bought lots of stuff. We bought 10 MUG soft drinks , 3 packet cornflakes, 2 packet M&M, 2 packet oreo, 1 packet rainbow candy, 1 chocolate syrup and 1 strawberry syrup !! TOMORROW going buy more drinks. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA =DDD

Went pasar malam with keith. Played lots and lots of games(: He bought me new water bottle and food. YUM YUM !! LOVE the cotton candy. Really enjoy today and love having keith company. However this company must stop. i must start getting used to not having him around cause nothing is forever. Recently alot of things had been happening. I realise that actually alot of things which i think i cant live without i actually can(= Saddness is soon fadding away and happiness is coming by.
Whatever i do now is for his own sake. i dun wan him to love me for the sake of loving but because he wants to love me. I made the decision to stop being nice to him and treating him as a friend.

There are quite a few reasons:

I wan to be independent
I wan him to behave and play his part as a stead
I wan him to get it clear whether he love me or need me


Really alot alot of reasons. Really hope he will do as he say and prove me that he really do love me because i am ESTELLE not cause of other reasons! HAHAHAHA LOVE IS NOT COINCIDENT ; LOVE IS EFFORT Hmmm, today really do sit SINGAPORE FLYER !!
The view from on top is very nice. We went to seafood paradise for dinner and
KEITH, the greedy bum order his favourite crab. But the white pepper crab is really nice(:
The spicy mayo prawns is also nice. However nice food have to pay a nice price. The bill came up to 100plus. OMG, expensive. Have lots and lots of fun today. Took lots of pictures and really have lots of fun. TODAY IS A REALLY FUN AND ENJOYING DAY !!!!!!! Today is such a boring day. Stay at home doing nothing. Surfing the internet,
watching cartoon and nothing else. Time passes by so so slowly. Luckily tomorrow
have lessons and wont be so bored. Jon always saying lame things making us laugh.
Time passes by really fast with his jokes !

Grandpa bought me noodles for dinner but it taste yucks. Its tasteless lor.
So I have to find my own food and my nice little sister offer to make me some pizza.
YUMMY, ALRIGHT. shall stop here. going to enjoy my pizza. ♥ I LOVE YOU Hearing you say you fell, i still do get worry. Wanted to tell you so badly to take good care to do this do that. But i have to control myself and stop myself from doing so. I really dun wan to go back to the past! So all i cant do is just say CARE ! I duno whether you mean it this time when you say wan change for me. Of cause i hope its true and is looking forward but at the same time i am AFRAID! I dun wan to get hurt dun wan to listen to lies anymore. Really dunno what can i do now, maybe pretending that i dont care is what i should do now. Mayb by doing all this one day i will stop loving you so much. HOPE FATE WILL GUIDE ME THROUGH ! Today is a very special day. Keith actually ask me if i wan sit singapore flyer.
We walk from marina square to the flyer and half way we got kind of lost. So we basically end up taking a stroll at the nearby park and end up walking to millenium and have dinner at 寒舍. Food is not bad lar but quite expensive =DD

LUCKILY, we still manage to walk to the singapore flyers. But we didnt sit in the end cause got ppl =X ! So we bought some yummy ICE CREAM and guess what we actually wan to the river nearby and sat there till we finish our ice cream. Its the first time we didnt go shopping centre but somewhere more ROMANTIC(: Its really very unforgettable and i truly think that this is the kind of love im looking for. Sweet, Simple !

BUT WILL THINGS LAST LOVE LOVE LOVE !

Alot of us tend to fall in love easily
Thinking that he/she is our special one !

However the truth is always neglected.
When we are in "LOVE"
We often think from our heart and not our mind

But did anyone actually ask themselve;
WHAT IS TRUE LOVE ?
HOW TO DEFINE TRUE LOVE ?
HOW DO WE KNOW WE FOUND OUR TRUE LOVE ?

So, my question is;
How should one act and behave to show that his/her love is sincerely true.
How can we know when and who is our TRUE LOVE, SPECIAL ONE.

i guess this questions is something many are wondering why must human have feelings?
without feelings we'll not know what is LOVE
and thus never will we fall in LOVE !

falling in love with someone who might not
love you is really kind of miserable.
is secretly loving someone good or bad.

seeing them happy, will we really be happy? SORRY!

Very long nvr update le. BUSY LEH =X
Okay, its my excuse lar. HAHAHA

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